The one place I could spend forever
I love hearing the waves washing up.
I miss feeling like no matter what, you know everythings okay at that moment.
How we’d lay on picnic benches, watching the sky burn so bright.
Everything in the world seems perfect. A place where you wish you could spend forever.
It sucks the reality out of you, making you blind.
Until your forced back, and reality hits hard. Everything hurts more then ever.
I wish I could stop missing you.
From the minute I met you I knew you’d be a big part of me it was just a matter of time. And now I sit here wishing I could go back and change everything. I’m sorry, so sorry to the point I scream out, I go insane. I was only trying to be the girl you always wanted. I tried so hard to make you smile that I just made myself out to be someone I’m not.
You showed me an entire different side of life you made me see things for how they really are. You can’t blame me for not being able to get over you so quickly. I can’t control anything when I’m with you. If it were up to me I would have been over you a long time ago. But every time I have almost gotten you completely out of my mind you come crawling back in. Every time I see your eyes staring through mine I push you away. I’ve learned to be good at making myself believe I hate someone. But when it comes to you there’s not an ounce of hate. No part of me wants to completely let you go but I know fate took its course and its as clear as day I can’t be with you.
So much has changed, it hurts everyday. I just want the days back with you. I would do it all over again a million times. I miss laughing with you, not having a care in the world, we didn‘t have limits, there were no rules. What hurts the most is when I see you and there’s still not a smile on your face. I fight, I struggle to get you out of my head and by the end of the day it feels like your almost gone. But then I dream, and I’ve tried so hard but your always there. Looking me in the eyes again, telling me what I wish so much to hear then you dissapear. I wake every morning in tears and it hurts more then ever all over again. I know that you don’t even know that this is to you, because I know your smart but you were blind to see what you meant to me.
You never fail to put a smile on my face and tears in my eyes.